immolate me.

immolate me. i want to be burned alive, from the inside out. there's a fire in my mind, dying to get out. get out. get in and set it free. let me burn to dust and ash and charred bits of bone. the wind will blow me to all directions. distant lands i'd never see, never touch or feel. let the wind take me, splinter me. finally freeing me from this thing. inside. eating me alive. i'm burning inside. my mind is consuming me.

fear. suspicion. doubt. self-loathing. a lack of trust. burning me alive.

hollowed out, a husk, a shell, an empty room. never free. chained to this, inside me, a despair, never free.

just burn me alive and set me free.

anything but this. "a living ruin." buried alive by my own indecision and fear. no trust. nothing left but this fire, emptying me of anything, building me again. some travesty of a pheonix, not born anew, but old, ancient, tortured.

BURN ME. IMMOLATE ME. I CAN NO LONGER FUNCTION AS THIS LIVING RUIN.

immolate me.